"If you had to do this over, would you end his life again?"/"I would have done a better job of making sure I ended my own."

Said "The millionaire mom who poisoned her autistic son and called it a mercy killing," who was convicted of manslaughter and sentenced, yesterday, to 18 years in prison.

The sentencing brought to a close a tangled and troubling trial that seemed to raise as many questions as it answered: Was Jude really being sexually abused, or did Jordan just believe he was? And if Jordan�s allegations of abuse weren�t real, was her child�s killing an outcome of delusion or a calculated murder?...

�I need to be dead. I need a lot of drugs to die peacefully. That�s all,� Jordan said at trial, reading what she said was a written dialogue between 8-year-old Jude and herself. Later, she said he wrote, �We are going to die anyway. Let�s do it ourselves.�